i wanna own these dolls

it's what i'm thinking 'bout it ~

is this a right thing to think and say ? ...

if he is right here by my side, should i say, "i wanna comforted by you" ? ~ ♥
if he is here right now, what is his response if i say, "i wanna be with you today and forever" ? ~ ♥
if he is here, should i make it as my brother or my boyfriend ? ~ ♥
if i meet him somewhere, will he recognize me as a fans or someone that he love ? ~ ♥

and when i ask something like these, what is his answer ? ...

do you care about me ? ~ ♥
do you love me ? ~ ♥
do you feel the same as what i'm feel to you ? ~ ♥

will you choose me as your girlfriend ? ~ ♥
will you save me whenever i'm in danger ? ~ ♥
will you always be by my side ? ~ ♥

are those words possible for me to ask ?
or at last ...
am i only dreaming 'bout it a little bit too much ? ~ ♥

whahahaha !! XD

whahahahaha !!! i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~
i'm very happy today !! i'm very happy ~ very happy ~

today is so freakin' damn hot !!

huwaaaah ~ !!! it's hot .. hot .. hot.. everywhere .. ><

the sun shines so shinny *what the hell with my language ?!!* hwahawhahahaha ... >:D
huhf ~ luckily , it's holiday now, and tomorrow and until about 3 weeks later .. hehehe .. >:3
and i wonder what should i do on my holidays ? there's nothing i can do ..

hmm ~ i have many plans for these holidays, but seems like i can't do that all ..
first, i've planned to go to a recreation park to have fun with my friends , but it totally decline .. ya' know that one of my friends can't attend the event *what event ?!! LOL*
and the second is i want to go to a mall that will be an cosplay event there .. hwahahhaha , can't wait for it .. >w<

err ? wait a sec .. i've only planned 2 planning for these holidays ?
whoaah ~ i wonder why can i think so many about it ? LOL


HAPPY HOLIDAY ~ \(o^w^o)/

today was so fun .. hahaha

okay , hajimemashou ka ? hehehehe .. >:3

today, i went to school normally just like before . i arrived at about seven o'clock , and o my gosh !! it was really silent in my class . everybody went to attended the class-meeting . hahahahaha .. XD
i waited for my friend ICO CHAN *read it okay ?! it's green hahaha* with LIANNY YEN YEN *read it okay ?! it's yellow hahaha* about half hour .. and when she arrived, we went to the teacher's room to get our paper test .

we waited for a looooonnnggg timee, and we decided to skipped the school . unfortunately, they didn't allow me to step out from the school, and if we wanted to go home or something else, we need to have the permit letter from the teacher . it's so SUCKS !!
so, we planned something GENIUS . hahahaaha . >:D
i went to the teacher's room and get the letter , and finally !! jreeng jreng jreng jreeennngg !!!
i've got it !! hahahaha
we skipped the school together ~ lalalalalalalalaaa ~ ♪♪♪♪♪

HAPPY HOLIDAY

Music : Cherish | Video : draw with me

i always wanna cry when i watch this video .. TTATT

Ai Otsuka
:: Cherish ::


~Romaji Lyrics~

Itsukara ka suteki na koto wa
Hitsuzen youshite dokoka wo ushinatta
Kokoro no tsunagari ni obiete
Karada de ume youtoshita
Fuan wo gomakashita
Sonna mainichi no naka de
Anata wa mou atashi no
Kokoro no naka ni ita

*Moshimo futari fukaku omoete
Itsuka koko de toki wo oetemo
Zutto atashi anata wo aishite
Te wo nobashiteru to omoeta no

Aijou wa nante kowai mono
Dakara nigetari motomeru
Otona datoka kodomo datoka
Nou kankei nai yo

Marude hatsukoi mitai
Unmei dato omoeru kurai
Daki aeba kanjiru
Kore hodo ni nai yume goro

Moshimo futari deae nakereba
Konna fuu ni warae nakatta
Kotoshi ichiban shiawase na no wa
Anata no soba ni ireta koto

*Repeat

~Kanji Lyrics~

いつからか　素敵なことは
必然要して　どこかを失った
心のつながりに　おびえて
体でうめようとした
不安をごまかした
そんな毎日の中で
あなたはもうあたしの
心の中にいた

※もしも　2人　深く想えて
いつか　ここで　時を終えても
ずっとあたし　あなたを愛して
手を伸ばしてると　思えたの※

愛情は　なんてこわいもの
だから　逃げたり　求める
大人だとか　子どもだとか
もう関係ないよ

まるで初恋みたい
運命だと思えるくらい
抱きあえば　感じる
これほどにない　夢頃

もしも　2人　出会えなければ
こんな風に　笑えなかった
今年　1番　幸せなのは
あなたのそばに　いれたこと

(※くり返し)

~English Translation Lyrics~

Since when have we lost
the wonderful things that we need somewhere?
I fear the connection to [your] heart
& I buried myself with my body
During those days [when] I [lied] everyday about my fear,
you were already in my heart

If we can think deeply
that someday time will end here,
I thought that will always love you
& I'll be holding out my hand [to you]

Love is such a scary thing
That’s why we run away as we search for it
It no longer has anything to do with being an adult or being a child

This feels just like it’s my first love
So much so that I feel like it must be fate
Not even in my dreams do I feel
The way I do when we hold each other

If we can't meet each other,
I couldn't laugh this way [like when I'm with you]
This year, the happiest thing is
being able to be by your side

If we can think deeply
that someday time will end here,
I thought that will always love you
& I'll be holding out my hand [to you]

IT'S A LOL !! XD

hahaha , i wanna laugh when i heard my friend tell me that my mom ask her if i have a boyfriend or not . .

well, i don't know why , but i think she's still want to know about it . . .

and what must i say if she ask ? Hahaha . XD
should i say yes ? or maybe No . . ROFL ~ >:D